Sometimes, I lose all sense of filtering my thoughts before I state them, and any sense of perspective/respect and become a total asshole. Yesterday was one such day, to several people. I wonder why I do this or how it happens. I tend to self-flagellate a lot afterwards, so I need to learn to count to ten or snap a rubber band or ask myself What Would Judith Martin Do, no matter how much other people affront my sensibilities - I need to trust my strength more and not always feel the need to make a stand. I suppose that it is all grist for the mill, and the fall-out from that sort of behavior can make me a better person if I address it. I just wish it wasn't such a pain in the ass to do so.